Chapter 4 – The True Power of
the Humble
As we approach the meeting spot, it
is then that I wish I was more and had more so that I could’ve stopped this. I
wish my singing didn’t need to be heard for it to be effective, that I wasn’t
who I was in the past, and that my Heart Absolute ability was different. It is
also at this time that I realize that Polline is thinking much of the same
regrets. We look at each other and hold one another before finally coming to
the hill. The conceited show up soon after and surround us. Because they’re
around us, our feelings of regret increase and we are tempted to beg for our
lives and give our service to them in return for them. Along with it, the
feeling that restricts me from singing enters my throat.
“We won’t give in to you. You may as
well kill us,” I say.
“You won’t get your way in this. The
Absolute will win in the end,” Polline adds.
“So says the clowns, the literal
fools of the world,” one of the possessed conceited says, “Know that your
deaths will be used for a greater good. We already knew that you would tell the
man we gave you to get help, which is why we’ll kill you slowly and make
you an example for the others. Just know that we gave you a chance to become
yourselves and that you could’ve done more. Instead of being a circus of fools
doing nothing but being entertainment, you could’ve been king and queen of your
own kingdom making real changes for the world and yourselves.”
The possessed conceited then hold
out their hands and our bodies feel as if they are being sucked out of life and
being cut from the inside out. As our skin turns white and every part of our
body hurts, we feel indescribable amounts of pain while also feeling that we
aren’t dying fast enough to match the pain. Since we can do nothing, we hold
each other and bear the pain together. If this is what the Absolute wants us to
do, then we humbly accept this as our fate. Doing this numbs the pain somewhat
while not getting rid of it completely. Forgive them, Absolute, because they
don’t know what they’re really doing.
Agonizing minutes pass until we
begin to feel a strange sense of relief. Looking around us, we see that the
conceited are as confused as we are and whisper to themselves about something
until we see the vainglory leave their bodies one by one. As this is happening,
the appearance of the conceited slowly goes back to normal, however, they
scream in pain while this is going on. Neither Polline nor I know what to say or
do until it is done and all the conceited are passed out on the ground.
“What happened?” Polline asks.
“A miracle as far as I know,” I say
until I realize the answer, “It was the Absolute helping us through humility.”
“What you’re saying makes sense to
me for some reason, but what does it mean?”
“I think we were too reliant on our
Heart Absolute abilities and forgot that the Absolute is our only true weapon
against our enemies. Even though these conceited were foolish in trying to go
up against the truth, we were more foolish to forget where our strength came
from and that we shouldn’t worry no matter how hopeless things may seem.”
“I get it, but still don’t
completely understand it. How did putting us in this situation and making us
suffer do anything to the conceited?”
“That’s the thing with the Absolute.
You’ll never completely understand Him. That’s why we have to admit to being fools for all of our life. There’s always more to understand and because of
that, all the more reason to continue our pursuit of truth and to learn the
infinite depths of love.”
“The part about us being fools for
the rest of our life is true enough, but I’d at least like to think we’re wise
fools for picking the right path. Anyways, what should we do about these conceited?”
“Bring them back to be healed and
converted in heart. They are still alive after all, which means they still have
a chance at changing in the Absolute’s mind. We should get the people from the
town to help us carry them back.”
Polline and I meet the people of
the town and circus halfway back and they help us take the conceited to a
hospital church dedicated to the Absolute where they will be cared for. I have
my hopes that they will change since even a person like me did and I was worse
than they were. Even though the threat of the vainglory is temporarily halted,
there are sure to be more coming for us. Some people in town suggest routing
them out from the lands, but I suggest that we instead continue doing as we
have been assigned by the Absolute. This makes people uneasy and I even get
called stupid and idiotic for suggesting this, especially after what happened.
“Is it really foolish to do what truth
and love itself tell us to do?” I ask, “As we were, the conceited and vainglory
viewed us as a threat that needed to be destroyed. I say that we continue being
fools for the Absolute so we may continue being a thorn in the side of evil and
have victories against them such as today's. If the Absolute calls you to act,
then do so. We need people fighting against evil and finding the people that
the conceited kidnapped. If the Absolute calls you to be a baker, a farmer, or
even a clown like me, then you’ll be better in that role than that of a
soldier.”
People start agreeing with me and
then go about their business doing what they think the Absolute wants them to
do. As for Polline and I, we hold a special event at the circus to celebrate
our victory, the return of one of our clowns, and all that the Absolute has
given us. My part soon comes up, Polline begins to play her guitar, and I begin
to sing as the Absolute has moved me to do as my purpose in life. This new life
that I treasure by living in the present and leaving the past and future where
they belong.
“In the moment of despair
Nothing feels fair
Suffering is all there is to life
And it all hangs on the edge of a
knife
Lift the spirit of your hearts
Don't give up, even if it gets
worse
There is always another day
There's more to life than the dull
and gray
It will change one day or another
One day when you'll meet your true
lover
A day when we'll do more than hope
and pray
A day when all the evil and
suffering will go away
So hold onto me until then
And remember love and truth win in
the end
You gotta leave the past behind
All good things come in due time
It doesn't matter how things have
been
Today is not the end
Lift up the spirit of your hearts
Don't give up, even when all is
dark
There is always another day
There's more to life than the dull
and gray
It will change one day or another
One day when you'll meet your true
lover
A day when we'll do more than hope
and pray
A day when all the evil and
suffering will go away
So hold onto me until then
And remember love and truth win in
the end
Remember that no one is perfect
No one is free from defect
But remember how far you have come
There's nothing to run from
Pick yourself up
Don't let your heart go numb
Forget about the horror
Leave your worries behind and go
forward
There is always another day
There's more to life than the dull
and gray
It will change one day or another
One day when you'll meet your true
lover
A day when we'll do more than hope
and pray
A day when all the evil and
suffering will go away
So hold onto me until then
And remember love and truth win in
the end
Remember love and truth win in the
end”
*concept
art for the heart of fools. The heart of the blind fool is on the left and the
heart of the wise fool is on the right.
The End
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