Tuesday, April 6, 2021

Horror Before Happily Ever After: Maggots and Ashes (Song/Poem Attempt #91)

Ivy was taking a walk through the woods,

Taking stock of nature’s goods.

She’s a princess whose entire world is her inheritance.

Everything will be hers to use for her benefits.

 

One day, she hears a voice

That presents her with a choice.

“Leave behind this crown,

Or else your soul will be hell-bound.”

 

Hearing this voice confuses her.

She asks it, “What are you talking about, sir?

This land is full of beauty and roses

What is this threat that this crown imposes?”

 

“All who inherit the world, are rewarded with maggots and ashes

Know this or your fate will be tragic.

Those who live eventually die

This is plain to the eyes.

Therefore, look to the Heavens.

This will be your salvation.”

 

The voice sounds convincing,

So she asks it, “Convince me of the lie that I’ve been living.”

In an instant,

Ivy is teleported to her castle that was far in the distance.

 

Her castle is made out of a living tree

With people playing and working in glee.

The veil is then lifted

And now everything has shifted.

 

Every person who was clothed in flowers is naked.

Their bodies filled with holes, with maggots, their skin degraded.

The tree is made of living corpses.

A sight that could least be described as morbid.

The corpses in the trees do their masters bidding

As their skin gets torn and ripping

From the work they do and the mouths they feed.

Their serve to suffer and bleed.

 

The masters eat and spend.

They celebrate and work without end.

They too will share the same fate

As those they manipulate.

 

A seed is placed within their servants and children

So that what is obvious is hidden.

Even as the maggots eat their decaying bodies,

They ignore it and continue with their hobbies.

 

Ivy asks the voice, “Why do they do this?”

And the voice responds, “Because ignorance is bliss.

The happiness and wealth of the world are blinding.

Pleasures and gold are mesmerizing.

They enslave the weak to their will,

But no matter how much they consume, they will never get their fill.”

 

Seeing the holes and maggots within her,

She wonders why she is special to this divine whisperer.

Knowing her thoughts, the voice responds,

“Everyone should know of the great beyond.

I have talked to everyone here in one way or another.

I do not pick favorites one or the other.”

 

“What should I do then to fix this horror?

Watching this is no less than torture.”

“First, allow me to cleanse your mind, your ideology

Then you will be able to speak without apology.”

 

“Do as you will with me.

You, who have allowed me to see.”

Then Ivy was put on the path of salvation

Rather than the path of damnation.

Though she would rise and fall in her quest,

She reasoned and saved without rest.

Ivy served Heaven with passion

Because what is the use of worldly things when all will be nothing more than maggots and ashes.

Saturday, April 3, 2021

The Divine Antagonist series is now in one author's edition!



No one, but God knows what is best for us and our world. 
In these stories where God almost seems to be the antagonist, the world either chooses prosperity and comfort at the cost of sin and man-made gods or truth at the cost of suffering. God instructs various people to do His Will while the Deceiver tries to pull them in the other direction. What happens is a result of man either doing the right thing and following God or doing evil and falling to ruin. This collection includes; Holy Darkness, Abandoning Suffering, No True Hero, and The End of gods with Behind the Story extras that detail the thoughts that went behind the stories and some concept art.

Wednesday, March 31, 2021

The finale to the Divine Antagonist series is out!


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There's nothing too special about Killian, but he's able to recognize the voice of God in the silent whispers. He is deployed for his first mission as a soldier of the gods and ends up on a path that will set him against them. Though the odds are against him, God is with him in his journey as he blindly follows the Will of God.

The End of gods: Chapter 5 – Sanctity in Shadows

 "God is easily found where someone suffers out of love for someone else.”

-          Saying of the people in the Void

Chapter 5 – Sanctity in Shadows

For the next few days, Killian and Eliza wonder where the vine of black thorns leads them. Killian fights against dozens of slaves while Eliza watches out for him. They only manage to rest when they find a dark place isolated from the rest of society and when the watchers are dead, which isn’t all the time. Sometimes, the watchers hide themselves and the slaves pretend to be without sight and later ambush the two. In terms of eating and drinking, they live off the land that happens to have an abundance of fruit trees and rivers of clean water though they aren’t able to ask anyone for food because no one believes in poverty.

While resting one day, Eliza asks, “This army of slaves never seems to end.”

“Either more people break the law of the gods than we think or…”

“Or what do you think?”

“The gods teach that no one dies. What did they used to have before they were in power where they used to put the dead?”

“A graveyard. Now that you mention it, I haven’t seen any around and all the towns I’ve been to before all this had them. I wouldn’t put it past them to tear apart the graves and use the bodies of the dead as tools. They already use children and infants as their eyes to spy on the land so why wouldn’t they grave rob?”

“Yeah. Are you warm?”

“I’m fine. You need to worry more about yourself since you do all the fighting.”

“And you do all the seeing.”

“That vine probably helps you out more than me.”

“No, it doesn’t do as much now either than point us in the direction we need to go. Me losing my sight is probably why you’re with me.”

“Probably. I just wished I had my arms so I could do more.”

“You do more than enough.”

“How?”

“I couldn’t possibly do this alone. Not just because I don’t have my sight, but because I’d feel crippling loneliness even though I know that God is with me.”

“Really?”

“Yes, really. Your encouragement and concern for me really stops me from becoming sad and losing hope. Also…” Killian says as he holds Eliza closer to him so that she’s laying on top of him, “Feeling you next to me even in dark and damp places like this makes me happy.”

“Killian…” Eliza kisses him then mentions, “You know, we might not have any children after we’re married. Even when I was eighteen, I couldn’t conceive any.”

“God will provide. I’m sure of it. Why are you mentioning it anyway?”

“It’s just a thought that came to me that I thought you should know about.”

“It’ll all be fine in the end. Trust me.”

“Okay.”

A couple more days of traveling passes and on one of them, the god of justice ups the number of slaves that he sends after them since his patience has run out. They are almost overwhelmed until Killian is lead by the vine of black thorns into a hidden tunnel that is covered by branches and leaves. Killian and Eliza fall down this long tunnel and the god of justice assumes they die from the long fall, however, they manage to survive.

“Of all the places to be lead. I can’t see anything,” Eliza says.

“At least we’re safe. I don’t hear them following us,” Killian says as he gets up and walks forward.

“We did fall a long way down and we are in the pitch black darkness, so maybe they think we’re dead or the power of the gods doesn’t reach here like in the Void.”

“Could be a bit of both.”

Further into the tunnel are torches lit by black flames that give a strange cold warmth while also lighting up the area around them. Continuing down, Killian and Eliza find a society of blind people who despite being blind have been able to make clothes, create buildings, weapons, and armor, and even farm fruit, vegetables, and raise cattle. The entire area is spacious and the roof isn’t visible though it appears to be head up by long pillars that seemingly extend into infinity.

“I hear people around us. Where are we?” Killian asks Eliza.

“I don’t know. It’s a town full of blind people.”

The citizens of the town go to meet their new guests and Killian explains their situation to them. Thankfully, these people are worshippers of the one true God and allow Killian to stay with them as well as receive spiritual guidance along with a new set of armor and a new sword. This new armor of his has a triangle and cross on it, which is a symbol of God. The color of the armor is pitch black and durable while also being light. It also includes a shield on the arms so one doesn’t need to be carried. Just like the armor, the sword is also a pitch black color and appears to radiate darkness as if the blade was alight with black flames.

For three days, Killian is taught by the spiritual director about God and by the people how to fight despite being blind. Eliza, on the other hand, is given a black wedding dress for her eventual wedding as well as advice and encouragement from the women of the town. On the third day, Killian sneaks out of the underground city and fulfills what the spiritual directors tell him to without telling Eliza. He rides on a black horse to the Crown of the World where the gods are surprised to hear of his reappearance. Sensing his power, they arm and ready themselves for his arrival. Killian arrives at the Crown that has its gates open for him and an army of slaves and soldiers at the ready.

“Your darkness does not hide your identity from us, traitor,” Vere, the god of truth says, “Give up now or face eternal damnation, boy.”

Killian’s horse fades away because of the light of the gods and he finds that his mind is hazy. The vine of black thorns keeps Killian conscious and aware of what he should be believing as Vere uses his power of lies against him. Annoyed with what is happening and embarrassed as Killian’s display of rebellion makes the onlookers doubt the power of the gods, an arrow is fired by Caedes, the god of combat, at Killian that takes off the arm that has the vine of black thorns on it. Like before in training, Killian doesn’t bleed, but he still feels the pain and his arm with the vine is launched far away from him.

“Be thankful and in awe at our mercy for not immediately killing you. Do you not see why the God that turns the wheels of reality made us gods? This is your last chance,” Vere says.

In the silence, Killian hears the quiet voice of God telling him what he must do. Killian cuts where his arm was so that he can bleed.

“Look at this fool! What sane person would choose to suffer?”

“I offer this to you, my Lord and my God,” Killian says.

The blood that pours out of Killian’s wound shapes itself into an arm with a heart-shaped symbol in the center. Darkness from the sky falls on Killian and envelops him as an eye and blade-like limbs surround him. Terrified, some of the soldiers and onlookers run away. The gods feel their power weaken as the people return to their senses and their entire army of slaves collapses. Knowing through the whispers in the dark that this is the work of the one true God, people either uselessly run away or fall on their knees and repent. Those who chose to fight against Killian are taken into the darkness by angels never to be seen again.

In a final desperate attempt to keep their power over the world, the gods combine their powers and become a golden monster with many faces and limbs attached together grotesquely. Not expecting this result, they get a curtain to hide their appearance and face Killian.

“We are now one god,” the pantheon says, “Our power over reality is absolute.”

Killian cuts the curtain covering them then says, “You’re no god. Hardly even human anymore because of your sins.”

Hearing the voice of God in Killian’s, the pantheon trembles and attempts to use their power only to lose their ability to recognize reality and aren’t able to form thoughts as they implode on themselves. The entire world is darkened but lit up by the stars and the moon of the night sky. Witnesses of Killian’s actions spread the word of what happened across the world leading to celebration for some and anguish for others.

Once Killian gets back to Eliza, she headbutts him and says, “I should bite your face off for not telling me what you were going to do, but at least you know what’s like to be without an arm.”

“I’m sorry,” he says, “What can I do to make it up to you?”

“Marry me, of course. I’ve been waiting too long.”

Killian and Eliza kiss and have their marriage ceremony in the underground town attended by people from the Void and other followers of God. Even though the gods are no more, there are still those who worship idols and images of the old false gods, but God will not stop in trying to save their souls and bring down the false gods that try in vain to take His rightful place because where there is darkness, there is light.

The End

Birthday month reflections: March 31th

For my final birthday month reflection, I'd just like to thank everyone who has read these and taken something from them. I know that I'm better at saying things through my books, but I thought that these reflections would help both you and me better understand the things that I talk about. Anyways, I hope to see you all in Heaven one day. Have a great day, God bless you, and peace be with you! You're always going to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Tuesday, March 30, 2021

The End of gods: Chapter 4 – Hunted by the Light

Watch behind you.

Be on your best behavior.

The gods know what is true.

They know your sins.

So hurry and confess,

Or you will not be missed.”

-          From the Psalms of Righteousness

Chapter 4 – Hunted by the Light

While entering back into the Land of Bliss, Killian and Eliza are blinded by the light and must take some time for their eyes to become readjusted to it. Though this doesn’t affect Eliza because she hasn’t been in direct contact with the gods in a while, Killian’s memories of the past become a bit hazy and he has to stay vigilant about remembering what he’s supposed to do. The vine of black thorns aids in this by giving him a slight tug in the direction he’s supposed to be traveling and a silent voice in his head helps him to correct his thoughts though he doesn’t know what it says.

“This is a beautiful place, isn’t it? Would you like to settle down here when we get a chance?” Killian asks.

“I’m more used to farmland than the forest,” Eliza answers.

“We could do that too. I’ve heard it’s honest work that purifies your soul.”

“Why are we talking about this now? Shouldn’t you be focused on where we’re going?”

“Yeah, but that doesn’t mean that we can’t get to know each other better along the way.”

“What do you want to know about me that you don’t know already?”

“What’s your favorite food? What’s your favorite color? What do you like to do to relax? Stuff like that.”

“I haven’t thought about those things since I began my penance and I hardly remember them at all.”

“When you remember them, tell me.”

“Sure.”

Killian and Eliza continue to travel until they come across Scintilla who runs to Killian without yet realizing Eliza on his back. At first, Killian is excited to see Scintilla, but then feels afraid because of all the blood on her and then begins to feel even more afraid because of what he has to explain.

“Killian! Where have you been?! I’ve been looking all over for you for gods know how long!” she screams while waving and smiling at him.

“Scintilla…” Killian softly says.

“Friend of yours? She looks like what I used to,” Eliza says.

“You could say she’s a friend.”

Once Scintilla reaches Killian, she sees Eliza on his back.

She asks, “Who is that? Did you capture one of the enemies?”

“No, this is St. Eliza.”

“St. Eliza? You found her?! That’s amazing though where are her six arms and why are you carrying her on your back?”

Killian tries to explain as best he can what he knows while Scintilla looks at him in disbelief ready to argue against him, however, she doesn’t know what to say especially when he says that he’s supposed to marry Eliza. A silence fills the air as Killian anxiously awaits Scintilla’s response as she tries to begin one.

“Scintilla, I-”

“Shut up! I don’t want to hear anymore.”

“I know I can’t convince you to believe me, but you have to trust me-”

“I said shut up! First, what does the God behind reality have to do with all this why would He care when all He does is keep reality in existence?”

“He’s behind all of creation and truth so of course He cares about what happens to us.”

“But isn’t that why He gave the gods their powers?”

“That’s a lie by the gods.”

“The gods can’t lie. There is a literal god of truth who can’t lie.”

“That’s what they want you to think.”

“What makes you think that I’ll believe you especially with that vine of black thorns? It’s probably from the Age of the Black Thorn that caused so much suffering in the world.”

“It’s not it’s a blessed relic.”

“A relic that causes you pain and one that made you marry that limbless woman on your back?”

Eliza is frustrated by what Scintilla is saying since she sounds like what she did.

“I know it sounds crazy but-”

“But nothing. You were always blind, Killian. Still are. While you were learning how to fight, I studied and learned from the gods. What do you do? Learn from silent whispers and a vine? I’m giving you one chance to save your life. Toss this woman aside along with that vine and give me the ring that you were going to give her. It’s not like she has any fingers for the ring to go on.”

Eliza keeps what she wants to say to herself as she knows that it won’t help them.

“No, Scintilla. I won’t. Leave us alone, go into the Void, and find out the truth for yourself. Please, don’t make me do this.”

“You’ve killed me several times in a fight already, but this time you won’t have the gods’ blessing so you won’t be surviving if you lose.”

Killian quickly lays down Eliza and blocks a stab from Scintilla that almost hits Eliza.

“How dare you try to take him away from me!” Scintilla says before she continues to attack Killian.

In their fight, Killian tries to end it quickly and misses a direct stab through Scintilla's chest, but still manages to cut her. The sight of her own blood shocks both of them.

“What…why am I bleeding? Am I not blessed?” Scintilla asks herself.

“Your gods are more human than you think, girl. Give up and save yourself the regret of serving them,” Eliza says.

Scintilla again tries to kill Eliza, but Killian stops her and continues to fight her though he is more hesitant than he was before.

“It’s either me or her, Killian!” Scintilla says, “Who’s loved you all these years? Who hasn’t abandoned you? You know the answer.”

The two keep fighting and Killian almost stabs Scintilla. He stops himself and suffers for it when she counters and slices his eyes.

“Killian!” Eliza cries out.

“Now, you’re literally blind! How fitting,” Scintilla says as she kicks Killian down as he tries not to scream in pain. “I’m giving you one last chance. Repent of your sins and leave this woman behind.”

Killian can feel the vine of black thorns give him strength as the silent whispers give him strength.

“I have to do what’s right. I have to fulfill my purpose,” Killian says as he manages to stand up straight and hold his sword against Scintilla.

“How can you fight me without being able to see?”

“I’ve always been blind, right? I think I can manage.”

Spurred on by the silent whispers, Killian fights Scintilla without being hit and manages to kill her by cutting off her head, which is a sight he thanks God that he wasn’t able to see. He rips off a piece of cloth from his outfit and uses it to wrap the wound around his eyes.

As Killian goes to pick up Eliza, she asks, “She was close to you, wasn’t she?”

“She was,” Killian says as he ties Eliza to his back.

“What made you give her up for me?”

“Because it’s what I’m supposed to do, and I have feelings for you.”

“We barely know each other and you’re willing to lose your sight for me?”

“Yes.”

“Heh, you don’t need a lot of convincing to do something, do you? A feeling, a voice, and some influences convince you so easily it seems.”

“You’re right. Call me gullible, but I know enough about what’s right and wrong to make a decision on who I should trust.”

“It’s no wonder why God chose you to do whatever is that you’re going to be doing.”

Noises within the forest catch Killian’s attention.

“Do you see anything?” he asks Eliza.

“Something’s moving in the forest.”

“It’s probably the Blades of the gods. They’re slaves who make sure the law of the gods is followed. We have to move.”

“Then get moving for us! I can’t do anything!”

Killian starts to run where the vine of black thorns guides him and comes across hollowed out humans with blades in all parts of their body that act as swords and spears. One slave fires arrows from a distance. Killian manages to cut apart and deflect the arrows until he reaches the slave and cuts them in half revealing the person’s insides to be nothing but mechanical parts and hundreds of arrows.

“They hollow out people’s bodies and use them like puppets? Those people have really gone to new extremes,” Eliza says in disgust.

“That’s not all. They use the bodies of children and infants as their eyes,” Killian adds.

“Sick freaks.”

“As long as they see us, the rest of the slaves will continue to find us. You’re going to have to find them so I can get rid of them. Don’t worry about what they look like since they’re already dead.”

“Right.”

Eliza looks out for slaves who could be watching them and sees small figures in the trees with a large eye in their head. She, along with the vine, directs Killian’s movements so he can get rid of them. The slaves with blades in their bodies become berserk without anything to direct their movements and Killian begins to struggle against them until the top of his sword is broken. Backed into a corner again, he calms himself and cuts at the legs of the slaves so they can’t chase after them. He then finds a cave for them to rest in where the light of the gods doesn’t touch.

“Another cave, huh?” Eliza asks.

“We’ll only be here for the night,” Killian says as he takes Eliza off his back and sits her down beside him.

“It looks like morning outside with all that light. I’m surprised that we made it through all that. You’re amazing.”

“I couldn’t have done it without you…”

“Killian?” Eliza rests her head on his chest and makes sure that he’s still alive. She then rests next to him while laying her head on his shoulders. “You’re something else, Killian. I wish I was like you at your age.”

Killian and Eliza rest next to one another after an exhausting day of battle and travel. Meanwhile, after seeing what Killian did, the gods are not sure whether or not they should be concerned about him and leave it up to the god of justice to take care of this.

“He shouldn’t be much of a problem. He doesn’t even know where he’s going or what his purpose is,” the god of justice says to the pantheon, “We have plenty of husks to take care of him anyways. I have this under control.”

Birthday month reflections: March 30th

It is said that you should judge fairly and righteously. We should all remember that judging someone's actions as right can do just as much damage if not more than judging them as wrong because if someone keeps thinking that they're doing the right thing then they'll keep doing what they think is right. Nothing is more dangerous than a person who thinks they can never do wrong. It makes them think that they don't need the Sacrament of Confession or the forgiveness of God. This will eventually lead to their damnation unless God or someone reminds them of their sins, the fact that everyone sins and that no one is perfect, and finally that God is always merciful as long as we are truly sorry for our sins.