Wednesday, March 27, 2019

Summation: Chapter 5 - Are you with me?

Chapter 5 – Are you with me?
Did I set an alarm before I went to bed? Oh, it’s time to get up for school! I’ve got to hurry up and get ready. I quickly grab a few snacks to eat along the way.
“Bye, stepmom! Bye, stepdad!”
That’s weird. They’re oddly silent today. What’s even weirder are the people on the street. Cars seem to be aiming for me and people are looking at me as if they hate me. It’s the same in school. The teachers don’t even call on me when I raise my hand. They even yell at me when I do the smallest thing. I guess everyone is just in a bad mood today. I can’t wait to see my friends and my girlfri-…I remember this dream. It’s happening again. Why did I forget Alexa’s name and call her Angel?
“You’re like an angel when the sun shines on you, Alexa,” a memory reminds me.
“How cheesy,” the other me comments.
Oh, that’s right. Angel was her nickname I sometimes called her. I know it’s cheesy, but she liked it, however, the Alexa that is coming my way isn’t an angel. She’s a demon.
“Alexa! How are you doing?”
“Fine, without you.”
“No, you aren’t Alexa! You aren’t my angel.”
“What are you going to do about it? You wouldn’t hurt your little angel, would you?”
“No, but you aren’t her.”
Something inside me says rip off her face and the face of the two who are pretending to be my friend, and that’s what I do. I tear the faces off these pretenders. More start coming after me with the faces of my family and other friends. How dare they have the faces of the people I love! I tear off all their faces then scream out loud only to wake up moments later with a feeling of relief. Hopefully, that’s the last I’ll see of that dream.
“I wonder what Alexa’s reaction to you doing that would be.”
Please, I don’t want to think about it.
“But you did that for her honor and the honor of the other people you love.”
It doesn’t matter anymore. Let’s just forget about it.
I get up from my bed and walk out of the room as Alexa comes to the door.
“Up already?”
“Yeah. All of that exercise yesterday must’ve given me a lot of energy.”
“That’s great! Does that mean you’re ready for another day of it then?”
“With you, I’m ready for anything.”
“I’m glad to hear that.”
After eating a nice breakfast, we head out for sports and exercise.
While out, I ask Alexa, “So, how have you been? You didn’t tell me yesterday.”
“Sorry, I guess I was just having too much fun. It felt like all that time we spent apart didn’t happen.”
“It was the best day in a while for me.”
“Anyways, I’ve been doing okay. I’m doing good in school and sports like always even though I haven’t gotten any new awards. I’ve made some new friends here too though I’m not best friends with anybody and just talk to them in school and that’s it. It’s nothing like back at my other home.”
That’s good. It means she didn’t find a boyfriend here.
“What if she did? Would you be happy for her?” the other me asks.
Shut up.
“You want her all to yourself, don’t you?”
“How have you been, Michael?”
“Less than perfect let’s say.”
“Outside of what happened to you.”
“…I…was fine.”
“Are you sure? I remember the day I left. You wouldn’t stop chasing after me when I drove away. I remember crying as much as you.”
“You did? Because I never really got over it-uh! I mean…uh…”
Dang it. I didn’t mean to say that.
“Don’t worry about it. I didn’t really either even though it may seem like it.”
“You didn’t need to let it bother you.”
“I could say the same for you. Oh. You didn’t tell me how that lady, Serenity, found you.”
“She found me on through the internet while she was looking for another kid to kidnap.”
“That’s terrible that it had to be you, but then again, we’re together again because of what happened.”
“I guess you could call it an act of God if you wanted to.”
“Yeah. I’d like to think it is. It’s a shame that we’ll have to separate again when your parents come to get you.”
“I almost wish they don’t.”
“But you have to go back home, Michael. We can still talk across the phone and our webcam.”
“But it’s not the same.”
It’s why I never really picked up the phone or answered her calls. I thought it was over when she left me.
“I guess that’s why you never answered my calls. You know we can meet up again once we become adults.”
“But how long is that going to be? How do you know that something won’t happen between us that won’t separate us for good?”
“It depends how much you trust me, and judging by your attitude, it seems like you don’t trust me that much.”
We stop what we’re doing.
“That’s not it. I’m just not sure of the future.”
“Then how am I going to restore your faith in me?”
“You…tell me, we’re still together.”
“Huh? I thought we broke up.”
“I jumped the gun then because I thought I would never see you again. I acted impulsively without thinking and I’m sorry. My life without you is misery. Can you please forgive me?”
Please say yes, please say yes!
“…Maybe. You’ll have to prove that you still love me.”
“What do you want me to do? I’ll do anything.”
“You’re going to have to answer my calls and send me a letter like the one you wrote before once a month.”
“I’ll do it!”
“Then I accept your apology.”
I hug Alexa and she hugs me back. I want to give her a kiss, but she pushes my lips back with her finger.
“Uh, uh! I have to get a letter first before you get one.”
What a tease. Haha.
The other me says, “So, you got her back with no trouble. What were you worrying about all this time?”
I don’t know. I guess I was just that scared, but I should’ve known better. My angel wouldn’t abandon me.
Once we’re tired of our fun and games, we go back home and relax for a bit. We watch TV in the nice air-conditioned house. She’s already fallen asleep on me, which has to be one of the best parts of the day. I soon fall asleep as well and start to dream of me stopping by her house one day.
“Michael!” Alexa says in her beautiful velvety red dress, “It’s been years since we last saw each other.”
“I know, but we’ll never be separated again,” I get on one knee and say, “Will you marry me?”
“Ah! I do!”
“Are you ready to go? Do you need to take anything with you?”
“As long as I’m with you, I have everything I need.”
We get into my car and drive away, but as we’re driving away. People from the pavement start clawing at the car as if they’re trying to stop it and tear us out of it.
Get them away from us!
“I’m just a passenger in this ride,” the other me says, “Not the driver.”
The road keeps getting narrower and narrower because of the crowds of people until we hit a large pole in the center of the road. I wake up to see a car crash in the movie that we were watching. Alexa is still asleep-is she seriously drooling on me? I’m not sure whether to think this is gross or cute. Oh. Someone’s unlocking the door. It must be her parents. I wake her up so we can get up and greet them. They don’t appear to be very happy.
After saying hello, I ask, “Did something go wrong at work?”
Alexa’s mom shakes her head then looks at Alexa’s dad. He says, “No, nothing went wrong at work for either of us, but…the police couldn’t find your parents at your house. They searched the place and only found bloodstains and signs of a struggle. They’re suspecting the worst-case scenario given what I told them about the group that kidnapped you, but they are searching for them.”
Alexa’s mom and dad hold me then Alexa herself joins in to say sorry to me.
“You’re going to have to stay with us, not that we mind at all,” Alexa’s dad says, “You’ve already been part of the family ever since you and Alexa met. We’re glad to have you with us.”
“Thank you.”
Alexa, her dad, and I go to sit down as her mom makes dinner.
As we’re eating dinner, Alexa’s dad notices something, and says, “Are you okay, Michael?”
I don’t know why, but I don’t feel that bad about losing my family. Alexa’s dad must’ve noticed the smile that’s on my face.
“Yeah, I’m doing fine,” I say as I look at Alexa.
Her dad has always been perceptive. He looks back and forth at us, smiles then says, “Are you two back together?”
“We are,” I say with a little hesitation.
“That’s great!”
“When am I going to get grandchildren?” Alexa’s mom asks.
“Mom!”
We laugh a bit then tell her parents why we got back together. In bed, I rest more relaxed and at ease than any other night that I can think of. Even though my parents have disappeared, my life has taken a turn for the better.

The song used for this chapter is Check Yes Juliet by We The Kings.

Tuesday, March 26, 2019

The World I'll Give to You - (Song/Poem Attempt #44 From A Mother and Her Shattering Son)

I close my eyes and see
A world that's beautiful and filled with glee
Even in the dark and gloom
A place past all of the doom

Everyone has lost hope
They think I've lost my mind
But all they do is mope
Aren't they blind?
We can live in a better world of our dreams

Every day I push ahead
For the dreams in my head
The dreams that keep me awake
That keeps me going
To bring you a place to keep your love glowing

I'll build you a place
That is perfect for your smiling face
Each part of it is made to make you happy
For those gloomy days

Everyone has lost hope
They think I've lost my mind
But all they do is mope
Aren't they blind?
We can live in a better world of our dreams

Every day I push ahead
For the dreams in my head
The dreams that keep me awake
That keeps me going
To bring you a place to keep your love glowing

No matter how small
No matter how tall the obstacle
I will be with you through it all
Nothing will be impossible for you and me
To make the world I close my eyes to see
To make the world I close my eyes to see

Every day I push ahead
For the dreams in my head
The dreams that keep me awake
That keeps me going
To bring you a place to keep your love glowing

Together we'll make this world anew
Everything I do is for you
Know that our dreams will come true
Of The World I'll Give To You

A Million Dreams from The Greatest Showman movie is the inspiration for this song.

Summation: Phase 1 - Revitalization, Chapter 4 - So I Thought you were Gone

Phase 1 – Revitalization
Chapter 4 – So I Thought you were Gone
Alexa takes me to her house, and I explain my situation to Alexa and her parents while eating leftover dinner. They’re speechless and don’t know what to say for a solid minute of awkward silence.
“I’ll call my parents now, so they can pick me up as soon as possible. I’m sorry to surprise you like this and put so much on you at once,” I say to break the silence.
Alexa says, “No, no, no! It’s no trouble for us. Here. Call your parents.”
I try calling my parents, but they don’t pick up. That’s strange. The time difference between here and my home shouldn’t be that different. In fact, they should be awake and getting ready for work by now. I leave a message and give them a call later. I tell Alexa and her parents what I did, and they think the same.
A thought comes to me and I say, “I wonder if the Doll Factory got to them. I know that they’re experts in cleaning up the messes they start.”
“Don’t think like that, Michael! I’m sure they’re fine. Just hold out hope until you know for sure.”
“Okay.”
Alexa’s father says, “I can’t believe the Doll Factory is still alive after all these years. I remember my father fighting against them when they were in the city. It was really a group effort to get rid of them when the city knew they were here. We’ll take care of you for as long as you need, Michael. Don’t worry about how much time you spend here. You deserve it.”
“Thank you so much,” I say as I bow my head.
“I’m going to make some calls to investigate the remains of that ‘church’ you were at. In the meantime, you should get cleaned and changed out of those rags. Alexa, find Michael some of my old clothes to wear. I’m sure he’ll fit into them.”
“Okay.”
Alexa finds me a black tee shirt, a red buttoned up shirt, and a pair of black shorts for me to wear. After taking a shower, I change into this outfit and…I look the same still. Did I always have a black and red eye? Where did the clothes go? I don’t even feel them on me. No matter how many times I wash my face, it remains the same. What’s going on?
“Is something the matter buddy?” my reflection says to me.
AHH! What are you?
“I’m you or rather the other you. It’s nice to meet you.”
“Are you okay, Michael?” Alexa says with a knock at the door.
“Don’t keep the lady waiting.”
I hesitantly open the door with an uneasy smile. Alexa looks at me then smiles.
“You look good.”
“Oh, I do?”
“Of course you do. I did pick out the best outfit for you, didn’t I?”
“Y-yeah. You did! Thank you.”
“You’re welcome. You can sleep in the extra room we have. It’s for friends who sleep over. There’s a pair of PJs there too if you want. The outfits a little dorky because of my father’s taste. My mom has been trying to get rid of those PJs for a while.”
“Thank you again, really.”
“Well, have a good night, and…Michael?”
“Yeah?”
“I’m glad to finally see you again despite the circumstances. It’s been too long.”
She hugs me. I’m starting to remember more about her. I hug her back.
“I’m happy to see you again too.”
Alexa smiles then goes to her bed. Inside my temporary bedroom, I find the pair of PJs that Alexa told me about. They are definitely dorky. The design on them is that of a familiar horror series that I remember with bloody rabbits on them. I like them, so I wear them. It doesn’t take me long to fall asleep, but when I do, I see the other me again. This time he looks like the normal me, but he’s naked with a large black scar mark on his body that looks like a weird version of the symbol for a boy.
“She’s a cute girl, isn’t she?”
She is. Why?
“I know your previous feelings for her. I know your precious memories of her before you even remember.”
What’s your point?
“I’m just giving you a little heads up. Don’t do anything you’ll regret.”
What am I going to do?
“Hopefully you’ll reconnect. Maybe you’ll even make her your girlfriend. Do you remember your time with her yet?”
Give me a second. It’s kind of blurry since it was a while ago, and obviously, a lot has happened since then.
“It’ll all come back to you soon. I’ll be sticking with you the entire way.”
You’re me so how can you not?
“Good point. It’s time to wake up-”
“- for breakfast!” Alexa says while shaking me.
“I’m up!”
“Come on. My mom made pancakes for us.”
“Sounds great.”
I go downstairs and have a nice breakfast with Alexa’s family.
“Hey, Michael! I see you have good taste,” Alexa’s father says as he notices what I’m wearing.
“Oh. Yeah, I like games that these rabbits are from.”
Even though they see that I’m wearing a different outfit, I still see that I’m wearing that torn black wedding dress. I don’t understand this. I hope this changes soon.
Alexa’s mom says, “You can take it with you when you leave. I was going to get rid of it anyway.”
“Hey, that is a rare and top quality set of PJs. It is probably worth a month’s paycheck by now.”
“It’s not worth the muck on a dirty penny.”
After finishing, her dad says, “Alright, I’ll be going to the car shop. Take care while we’re at work you two.”
Alexa and I tell her parents that we’ll be fine as they leave. They left their plates near the sink. I’m guessing that Alexa helps around the house while her parents are away. I’ll help.
“You don’t need to do anything, Michael. You’re a guest in this house while you rest after what happened to you.”
“Alright, I guess, but I can help.”
“Oh, hush. Just relax.”
“Okay.”
I wish I could help in some way and show my thanks. Maybe I can come up with something or get my parents to give them some kind of compensation. Alexa and I almost look like a married couple like this. All she needs is…
My other me says in my head, “Hey, stop imagining her in a naked apron!”
I’m not doing that!
“Are you okay, honey?”
“What?”
“Are you okay, Michael?”
“Yeah. I’m fine. I just want to show my appreciation to you and your family.”
“That’s sweet of you, but you shouldn’t worry about it too much.”
“So, are you still in school? Are you on summer break yet?”
“Yeah. School just ended last week. I got some things upstairs I want to show you. Come on.”
“Woah there, stop imagining those things,” The other me says.
I’m not doing it myself!
We go upstairs to her room. It is filled with various certificates for awards in school and sports. There are also figures from various TV shows along with an actual TV in her room. No gaming system though, which sucks. Alexa looks through her drawers and pulls out a game. I think I see something in the drawer that I recognize. Could that be?
“What’s this for?” I ask.
“I borrowed it from you a while ago. I thought it was only right that I’d give it back.”
“Right…”
I can’t get my eyes off the red letter in the drawer. Alexa seems to have noticed and moves over to hide it.
“Don’t you still want it?”
“I didn’t mind that you kept it then I forgot about it…”
“Well, you can bring keep it. I don’t play video games that much anymore.”
I move my head to see the red letter, which makes Alexa sigh and take it out. Yep. It’s what I remembered it to be.
“You remember this letter?” Alexa asks.
“I do. I gave it to you one day in front of everyone during recess. I got laughed at a lot, but you took it anyway and gave me a kiss.”
“I did.”
“Aww. You two are blushing,” the other me points out.
Shut it.
“So, why do you keep it?”
“To remember you by. I still read it every now and then to cheer me up.”
“Oh, I’m surprised my writing cheers you up. You can probably tell I was scared while writing it.”
“What do you mean you were scared? What you did was brave, and it showed on your face and in your writing.”
“It did-ah, I hope it did!”
“Haha, well uh. Do you want to go out for a bit? You do still exercise and play sports, right?”
“I do, but I haven’t been doing as much since you left.”
“Then I better get you back into shape today.”
“Oh boy.”
After getting changed and some waters, we go outside and for some reason, we’re back to the way we looked as kids. At least I’m not wearing that stupid dress anymore.
“Come on, Michael! Keep up!”
“I’m trying to Alexa! You’re way too fast for me!”
“That’s right! I can run faster than a car!”
We’re running through a forest near a park now. I think we used to make our little camp here all the time.
“Do you want to try climbing the trees?” Alexa asks me.
“I’m going to try.”
I climb up the tree and make it to one of the heavy branches.
“Come on, Alexa. You’re more athletic than me.”
“I can do it. Just watch me!”
Alexa struggles to climb up the tree.
“Ah!”
“I got you!”
I catch her arm and pull her up to the branch I’m on.
“You saved me! You’re my hero!”
She gives me a hug.
“You’re welcome.”
As I look at her face, she gets older and I see that we’re sitting on a park bench. My appearance is back to normal. Is she sleeping? She’s smiling while holding onto me. Did we really do a lot?
“Alexa?”
“Huh? Oh. I’m sorry.”
“No, I don’t mind.”
“You rested and ready to have more fun?”
“Give me a sec-Ah!”
She squirts me in the face with some of her water with a giggle. When I open my eyes, I see that we’re at the shore.
“Come on, Michael! Let’s push against the waves!”
“I’m coming!”
We splash up against the waves until we see a huge wave coming.
I pull Alexa towards it while saying, “We can beat it!”
“Haha, are you crazy?”
“You aren’t going to beat us you big stupid wave! Ahhh!”
The huge wave throws us back to shore with us on top of each other. After coughing up water, we laugh at what happened. As I blink my eyes, I see that I’m sleeping over her house. Not her house in the present, but her house from the past. We’re reading old comics and acting them out. Every time we hear a noise we stop so that Alexa’s parents don’t suspect us of staying up late.
“And then the bad guy broke down the wall and-”
“Captured the two kids!” Alexa’s dad says as he picks us up and spins us around.
We laugh as he spins us around the room then plops us down on our beds.
“Come on, kids. I can’t keep spinning you around. You’re going to make me hurl one day and it’s going to be on both of you.”
We both say ewww while giggling at the thought for some reason.
“Now, come on and go to bed.”
As I agree to go to bed, I see that I’m sitting at the dinner table with Alexa and her parents.
Alexa smiles at me and asks, “What are you thinking about?”
“Huh? Oh, nothing. I was just remembering the times that your dad used to spin us around to tire us out to go to bed.”
“Hahaha. I remember that too,” Alexa’s mom says.
“Well, I hope you’re not thinking that I’ll do that again. You are older now and-”
“-Alexa has to go. We can’t stay here anymore I’m afraid.”
This is the day Alexa left town. She came to my house to say goodbye. I watch her in silence as if I’m trying to keep her there with my stare.
“We’re going back to our home in Hillside City. I love the community and everyone here, but we can’t afford to be here anymore.”
My dad says, “We understand. Right, Michael?”
I can’t get my eyes off Alexa and she can’t take hers off mine. My hands want to reach out to her and keep her here, but I’m too afraid and sad to do anything.
“Okay, well. I know you’re going to be fine without us. We’ll be keeping you in our prayers. Say goodbye, Alexa.”
“Good-goodbye,” she struggles to say.
No…don’t leave.
We go by the door to see them off, but when they begin to drive away, I bolt out the door.
“Alexa!”
I chase their car for a little while before her dad stops the car. It looks like he’s letting her say her last goodbye and that’s what she does. We cry and embrace without the want to let go. Her dad gets us to separate. I don’t remember what he was saying, but I begin to chase the car once they go farther away. They don’t stop this time and drive off into the distance.
I don’t hold any grudges towards Alexa’s family. I understand why they had to move, but I wasn’t the same after that. I stopped exercising and caring about school and other things in general. After a month, I started watching porn to fill a hole in my chest that was still gaping open. I don’t know why I did that, but it was the wrong decision or was it the right? I’m finally here with Alexa again.
“Are you okay, Michael?” Alexa asks.
“Ye-yeah. I’m just tired because of all the fun we had today. I haven’t had this much fun in a while.”
“I’m glad you had fun. Oh, dad, did Michael’s parents call you back yet?”
“They haven’t. I’ve been checking every now and then and I called a couple times today. Are you sure this is their right number, Michael?”
I look at the number again, and say, “Yeah, it is.”
“Okay, well I’m going to call my contacts in the police department and see if they can get officers to check your house. Don’t worry about them until we hear back from them, okay?”
“Okay.”
Part of me doesn’t want to go home. I’d honestly rather stay here forever.
After finishing up dinner, I go to bed and sleep with a smile on my face for the first time in a while. I can’t wait to see what we’ll do tomorrow.


So I Thought by Flyleaf is the song I thought of for this chapter.

Monday, March 25, 2019

The last interesting fact for the weeks leading up to my birthday is this. Don't put your trust in so-called good people. Everyone on earth is flawed. We always make mistakes no matter how old or wise we become, so don't put your complete trust in someone who thinks they're good or even decent. You should rather put your trust in someone who lists their faults before their positives. In that way, no one will ever let you down again. I've put my trust in too many people who said they knew better when they really knew less than even me, who just knows my basics. Don't forget to be humble as well, but don't always put yourself down. There's always room for improvement and learning.

Sunday, March 24, 2019

Summation: Chapter 3 - Deliverance from Rot

Chapter 3 – Deliverance from Rot
How long have I been walking to nowhere already? I’ve been searching for a place to help me, but I don’t know which place to go into. I’m not sure if I can enter anywhere looking like this. If only someone would just take me off the streets and give me somewhere to start. It doesn’t matter if they take me in as their own. I just want someplace to call home for a little. I want someone to care for me, but I’m not sure if I deserve that.
We’re all sinners and I’m just as hypocritical as everyone else in the world, but somehow, I might be worse.
“No, you aren’t.”
Oh, you’re back, little elephant.
“That’s me!”
Why do you keep following me?
“Because you need a friend!”
I need a human friend with me, not a little elephant.
“I’m sorry, but I’ll have to do for now. Why do you hate yourself so much?”
Because I hurt people that I care about.
“Everyone’s done that. You even said it yourself that you’re just as hypocritical as everyone else in the world. No one is perfect. What separates the good from the bad people is who makes up for what they did and who doesn’t.”
I can’t make up for what I did besides never seeing the people I know, so I can’t hurt them anymore.
“Is running away from your mistakes really the way to fix them?”
I don’t know. I’m not strong enough to do anything.
“You’re stronger than you think. Remember when you were with that woman? What was her name again?”
“Mrs. Serenity, here is the boy you requested.”
There was one day that she forced me to dress up in a French maid outfit for her viewing pleasure as she sat by her pool. Her servant had brought me out after I dressed.
“Thank you. Do you like the outfit I got for you, Michael? I picked it out myself.”
“It’s too tight and showy.”
“That’s just how I like it. You know you’ve been defying me ever since I brought you here. Why is that? I’ve fed you, given you drinks, a nice place to stay, and of course the woman of your dreams.”
“My wants are more than my fetishes.”
“Your internet history says differently. I watched you for a while before taking you in. You know you’re not the only child I’ve given this opportunity to. Do you see that river down the hill? Dozens of bodies have floated down that river only to be eaten by my piranhas. You’re going to be another if you make the wrong decision.”
Serenity points a pistol at me.
“You have two choices. Forever confess your love and willingly have sex with me or die here and never be heard from again.”
“I’d rather you kill me than be your pathetic sex slave.”
I’m afraid, but I’m not going to let this woman use me like a toy.
“I’ll give you three seconds to reconsider. One…Two…”
I closed my eyes.
“Three…”
Nothing happened. No gunshot. Nothing. I was thinking she would pull the trigger when I open my eyes, but she doesn’t. Instead, she smiles.
“That’s my boy. You’re more of a man than my husband is. Most kids usually got for the gun or get shot when they approach me, but you’re different. You’re the one I’ve been waiting for. For that, you get your reward.”
I don’t want to remember what happened after that. There was another day when had me by her side all day.
“You’ve been extra bad to me these past couple days. Even though I like my girls bad and my boys worse, you’ve been starting to get on my nerves. Why won’t you submit to me?”
“Kidnapping, beatings, rape, just to name a few.”
“You’ll learn to submit to me. My husband will see to that.”
Her husband comes closer and tries to beat me like always when she can’t. Of all the times this has happened, this hasn’t happened in a place where I could use sharp knives to defend myself. I don’t care if her butlers shoot me. I just want justice for all the lives she’s taken and the things she’s done to me. By the time the fight was almost done, I put five or so knives in her husband. I take the last butcher’s knife and hold it above his head.
“Stop, Michael. You don’t want to do this.” Serenity points her pistol at me while the other butlers were doing the same. “We’ll shoot your arms and legs then kill you. Painfully. Do you really want that?”
“I’m willing to die to avenge the people you killed. I don’t care what happens after.”
I scream as I plunge the knife down, but it’s quickly shot out of my hand. It was Serenity that did it.
“Thank goodness I didn’t shoot your precious hand.”
I don’t like the look on her face. She looks hornier than usual.
“I knew you were manlier than my husband. You’re going to get extra special treatment. Right now!”
The butlers tie my hands and feet together then threw me upstairs onto her bed. That was the longest time I endure her abuse. It was for at least for the entire afternoon until the early morning hours. I had to rest for the entire next day so I could recover. Huh? What’s happening now?
I’m dressed up in a white short wedding dress. I thought I was dressed in black? Here Serenity comes. She’s doing my hair while my makeup is already on. The first few times this happened I got my face beaten in. Now, I just let it happen so I have the energy to resist in some other way. This is weird, I can barely move by myself. I’m moving automatically as if I’m possessed.
Serenity says close to my ear, “Today’s our big day.”
No, I’m not.
“I’m excited.”
Why are my lips moving by themselves? I thought I was going to get married to her husband. He still had a thing for me even though I almost killed him. I’m not sure if Serenity or he was sicker.
“Let’s make it our most memorable day, shall we?”
Serenity puts some kind of white choker on my neck. Stop kissing me there! Why aren’t I reacting to it? My body’s leaning into her instead. Stop! I don’t want this! Huh? We’re already at the satanic church? Why does it look so white in here? Did I dream about going to Hillside City? What is going on here?
“Do you, Michael, take Serenity to be your wife, now until the day you die?”
I plead the fifth.
“I do.”
No, I don’t!
“You may kiss your wife.”
Stop! Don’t! Damn it! What’s going on now? I’m at the wedding party now? I’m dancing like an idiot who’s trying to be a stripper right now. Wait, why did someone pull up a chair for me to sit on? Why is Serenity going under-Hey! Get your mouth off that! Why is everyone laughing and cheering? You’re all a bunch of sickos! Hey, don’t take away my underwear! I barely had anything to cover me, to begin with.
What? We’re back home now. She’s carrying me back inside to the bedroom. No! I’m not going to do this! I’m not going to be her new husband! I’m not going to father her children! Stop! Huh? What’s going on now?
We’re trapped in a glass coffin together. Serenity is on top of me with her hands all over me while I’m facing down. I can’t move at all. This better be all in my head, but is it really? It’s just so much. Huh? Is that the elephant?
“Do you see? You’re resistant to her. You’re stronger than you think. You’re also willing to be the instrument of revenge for the other kids who were wronged at the cost of your life. Without resisting until the end, those people couldn’t have all been executed at once.”
Tell me, if you somehow know, who started that fire in the satanic church?
“God did and your guardian angel was His instrument.”
Haha, my guardian angel. Right. Where was he when I was being abused during all that time?
“Patiently but sorrowfully waiting for you to endure it all. He’s still with you and happy that you made it through that ordeal.”
Right. You might want to help me more if something like this ever happens again. I’m not mad at you. I’m just…whatever. So, what happens now?
“Let go of the past.”
What? Argh! Serenity puts her hands in my chest and her hands are on my heart. The glass coffin shatters beneath us, so I’m finally free from it.
“Give into me, Michael. We could be so happy together.”
I’m not going to burn in Hell with you.
I take the glass shards scattered around me and stab them into Serenity until she lets me go. When she does, I turn around to see her for what she truly is. Her skin is completely white now. She has black and red eyes, with an eye on her breast and belly button, and a mouth on her other breast and crotch. She’s basically what I imagined her to always be. I take the pieces of shattered glass and stab her in her new mutated areas then stab her in the throat. She holds onto me as she fades into a puddle of blood.
“I’m not done with you yet.”
Yes, you are.
After I blink my eye a few times, I see that I’m kneeling in the rain. I’m still in Hillside City and it’s nighttime right now. I feel a bit freer, but…it could be worse. There’s a girl about my age looking at me right now in these empty streets. She probably thinks I’m another weirdo. I think I recognize her.
She comes up to me and asks, “Michael, is that you?”
“Uh. My name is Michael, but who are you?”
“I’m Alexa. Remember? I moved here a couple of months ago with my family. You…look like you’ve been through a lot. Do you want to come over my house to get cleaned up?”
“Yeah. I’d like that.”
Alexa smiles as she leads me to her house. This could be a new start for me. Even though the past is still tugging at me, I’m going to move forward into a bright new day.


End of Phase 0




The song for this chapter is Rot by Lacey Strum.