Chapter 3 – Drunk on Depravity
This is the right decision to make.
I don’t need to go to confession since I haven’t sinned at all. My condition hasn’t
even worsened since I started working at the club. In fact, I’ve never been
happier in my life. I’m living in a better apartment with better clothing,
shoes, and makeup to better show my natural beauty. I also have supportive
friends who understand me better than anyone else I’ve known. Working here the
past few weeks has really helped me cope with my condition. I’m finally on the
path I want to be on in life.
Because of my hard work, I’ve been
promoted to work at another club that’s a bit more than the last. The people dress
more risqué and dance on stages, but it isn’t a strip club! I also have to
dress in a similar manner to fit in. It doesn’t bother me though it does get
the attention of other sinners who like to flirt and try to invite me for some “fun”.
They have their good intentions, but it’s not for me and they understand. I
think they do at least.
They have harder drugs and alcohol over
here than at the other place I worked at. The stuff is good especially since my
condition lets me endure the negative effects better, however, the best thing
about this club is that the pay and food are better. My condition has worsened
a bit though the benefits of working at the club outweigh the negatives. Three weeks
of working at the club get me a meeting with the boss for a promotion.
“Your hard work and dedication is
paying off and turning heads, Lilith,” my boss says.
“I live to please.”
“I’d be careful saying that to your
new employers. If you think this is a bit much, then they’ll really cross the
line. It’s nothing sinful of course.”
“I get it. To each their own.”
“Exactly, but I just wanted to give
you a heads up. They won’t be offended if you chose to stay here.”
“It’s a tempting thought to stay
since I love working here, but I shouldn’t let a good opportunity go when it’s
presented to me.”
“Thatta girl. I’m proud to have you
as one of my workers, but back to business. Here’s the kind of outfit that they
want you to wear as your ‘uniform’.”
My boss puts on a tub top and short
skirt.
“This is pretty revealing
especially the skirt.”
“It’s no more revealing than what
you have on. Your shorts are shorter than the skirt anyways.”
“Yeah, but you can’t peek up it see
my underwear…or lack of it in some cases.”
“Hahaha, you won’t have to worry
about people getting touchy with you. There’s a strict rule that kicks out
anyone who touches someone who doesn’t want to be touched though there’s also a
rule that can get you paid a little extra if you don’t mind a few grabby hands.”
“I’ll think about it.”
“I know that you’ll make the right
choice. Before you go, can I get one last hug and kiss?”
“Of course you can.” I give my boss
a hug and kiss and he uses the opportunity to touch my butt. “You troublemaker.”
“Haha, you know me. Don’t forget
that you always have friends here if you need anything.”
“I won’t forget.”
When I get to the next job, I see
that’s it’s a really sleazy place despite all the glitz and glamor of it all
and it being uptown. I work at the bar and everything seems so different with
how lewd people act in here. I’m pretty sure I can hear people having sex in
the back or it could just be the music. Either way, this is a lot to get used to.
My condition is worsening because of everything that I’m experiencing, but I
can handle it. I need to calm down and get used to-!
“Hey!” I say to a guy who touches my
breasts while I’m not noticing.
“Shh, don’t be so loud. I’ll pay
you five thousand upfront if you let me touch you until you leave.”
The man then takes out five
thousand dollars and puts it in front of me.
“Five thousand? Hmm.”
“I promise it’s only just touching
and nothing more.”
“Hmm. As long as you don’t get too
touchy.”
“Deal.”
With that, more people come around
to pay to touch me. I work more as the people’s plaything than a bartender. The
other people working here get the same kind of treatment then go to the back room
with some people for…whatever reason. I don’t want to think about it or let it
get that far. Over the week, I accrue a fortune because of all the tips I get
for being touched. I bring this to my new boss and ask her how much of a cut she
wants.
“Hahaha. You’re something special,
Lilith. Very few of my workers ask if I want a cut of their massive tips,” she
says.
“Okay? What does that mean?”
“Because you thought about me, I’ll
take fifty percent and give you your paycheck. Usually, I take sixty percent
and don’t give them their pay for working when they don’t tell me they collect
tips. Most if not everyone ends up like this. Congratulations on not being one
of them.”
“Thank you, madame.”
“Keep working hard and that next
promotion will be around the corner.”
She tells me to work and I’m hardly
doing anything other than serving some drinks and drugs while being touched all
the time. I don’t think I need my choker with a cross on it anymore, so I wear a
golden chain necklace with some golden bracelets. Not sure why I want to wear
these other than they make me feel better. The people at the club notice my new
accessories and compliment me on them telling me that they like me better with
the gold than the cross. Part of me feels like someone from the Church sees me
doing this and is reporting this to the priest. Maybe it’s my guardian angel. Whoever
it is, they can think what they want.
I know I’m doing the right thing
because of how happy it’s making me. After two weeks of working at this club, I
start touching people back. Sure, I may touch people back in lewd ways, but it’s
nothing serious even though some ask me to go in the back for double their tip.
This is where I draw the line. Most are fine with me denying them, though a few
can be a bit “pushier” when I deny them. These people are kicked out of the
club.
It takes five weeks of working here
and being touched day in and out for eight hours a day to get my promotion. The
next place I work out is more out of the way than the others. It’s still in an
uptown area, however, I have to go underground after confirming my identity to
two checkpoints of guards. What’s so special about this place that they need…Oh.
I don’t even want to describe what I’m seeing, nor do I want to see or hear it.
Dang it, I have to work in this. What have I gotten myself in to?
As I walk into the club and make my
way to my station, I keep my head down and away from what’s happening around me.
It’s going to be incredibly hard to work with my head down and trying not to
let what’s happening around me bother me. Hopefully, it’s worth the thirty dollars
an hour. Once I get to the bar, I start working and am almost immediately
forced to look up by a familiar friend. It’s the man who showed up at my old apartment
and gave me the invitation to work at the clubs. His name is Bryson and he’s
one of my best friends.
“Hey, what are you doing here,
Bryson? I’m surprised to see you here,” I try to say in a calm and happy way
with a smile on my face.
“I’m not as surprised as you are.
You are always trying to move up in the world.”
“Sorry I didn’t tell you I was
going to be working here. I was going to tell you after the first day like
always.”
“I understand, but is something the
matter with you? You didn’t seem to notice me in front of you and you’re always
looking down. Is someone giving you trouble already?”
“No, not at all.”
“What’s the matter then?”
“It’s just that…this is all a bit
much for me, which is why I’m surprised to see you here since what you like is
tame compared to it.”
“It doesn’t hurt to be risky every
now and then. I do it to keep things fresh. You should keep your eyes up. Trust
me when I say that it’s okay to look at it. If you think what everyone is doing
behind me is messed up, then that’s your opinion but it ain’t a fact. Come on,
Lilith. Your other jobs have been preparing you for this. You can trust me.”
I look up and around at what’s
around me. It’s more messed up than what I’ve seen on the internet in my curiously
sick teenage days. Sex is one thing, but fetish sex is another thing especially
when sinners like me are doing it.
“Heh, are-are you sure I didn’t accidentally
enter a torture porn studio?”
“Our condition allows us to do
things that would kill normal people.”
“I can see that. At least it’s all consensual,
right?”
“Mostly.”
“What?”
“It’s none of your concern. I can
help you get used to this.”
“How?”
“Come with me.”
“I’m working right now.”
“I’ll tell them I’m borrowing you
for a second. They’ll think it’s one thing, but don’t worry about it.”
“Okay, if you say so.”
Bryson then makes me watch lots of
different sexual acts in a room for hours until closing. It’s an…eye-opening
experience.
“Well, Lilith, how do you feel now?”
Bryson asks me.
“I feel. Great actually. Better
than I ever have as a matter of fact!”
“I’m glad. Oh, hide your gaping mouth
eye before you go out in public.”
“Thanks for reminding me.”
Gapping mouth eye? When I get home
and remove my eyepatch, I see what he’s talking about. My entire left eye has
become a mouth now. Along with this change, my mouth has sharper teeth that
look like a vampire's teeth especially with the four in the front while my long
tongue remains the same. I like this look. I may get some hate for it, but I’ve
learned that you either take the hate or let it overwhelm you. I’m going to
embrace it and become the best sinner I can be.
This club is even better than I thought.
It not only has the best drugs and alcohol in the city, but it also has the best
entertainment that I’m paid to watch. My paycheck gets me everything that I want
and the tips I get for letting people touch me and walk around semi-nude all
add up to an even better apartment.
During one of the private shows, a
friend of mine asks, “So, do you want to try what they are or something more
dangerous?”
I consider it for a second before
smiling and saying, “I want my first time to be special.”
“Oh, Giovane didn’t…”
“He didn’t. That’s why I want it to
be special and dangerous.”
“That’s our girl!”
“But it’s not going to be with you.”
“Ah! Denied!” the others in the
room say except for our performers.
It takes me a few weeks to make my
plans and decide my target, but when I find him, I feel something special in me
that lets me know he’s the right one for me. My target is a boy much younger
than me who I find walking home from school. I take his gaze with my appearance
and take him aside and flirt with him. He’s in the palm of my hand especially
since I give him a little peek of what his eyes keep gravitating towards. I let
him take pictures of all kinds so I can always be on his mind. I give him a
kiss then send him on his way. His blood-red face and the way he’s acting tells
me that he’s madly in love with me.
We go out together for a week
before I can no longer hold back what I want to do to him. On one date, I bring
him to one of the hotels run by a sinner I know and aggressively cuddle him, to
say the least. He says no, no, no, but I know he means yes, yes, yes. His tears
are the most delicious part of him besides his cute expression and his blood
that I taste. I keep using him as my little toy until I feel satisfied.
“That was amazing. You are such a
good boy toy,” I say as I lick his face.
Huh. He seems knocked out. I might
as well admire my work while I’m at it. What the? What’s happened to me? There’s
a mouth on my left breast, my arms have turned into tentacles, there's an eye where my belly
button was, and there’s a mouth where my crotch used to be. Looking into the
mirror, I see that my right eye has turned pitch black, all of my teeth are razor-sharp, I have a weird red collar and restraints made of blood where my golden chain and necklace were, and there are three horns
on my head along with a red-eye in the center. Hold on. What did I just do?
What have I become?